Jinda hu abhi

Mere rukne se sanse bhi ruk jayegi,
fasle aur bada do ki main jinda hu abhi,
zahar peene ki to aadat h jamane walo.
koi aur dawa do ki main jinda hu abhi,
Rah chalte yu hi aankh lag gayi hai,
bheed logo ki hata do ki main jinda hua abhi...

Garam chay ki pyali h..

If in my life I got a chance to thank somebody then first I will thank my parents for all their selfless love, care and manners, which they taught us and after that I will thank to the person who introduce me to my first love...
Tea; my first love...

I promised to myself years back that whenever I will be able to write something I will write about tea and I am keeping my words by giving it some space in my blog...
I think in India, after vvs laxman, if some one is not getting the respect they deserve then it is tea. I don’t know whether hadappa people used to take tea or not but from the time I knew about modern world, tea is serving people....Though I am little disappointed with the way people treating tea...

Because I believe that something so much multipurpose like tea should be respected. Personally in my life tea has supreme importance as lots of my experiences are based around tea...Tea is oldest friend I have. Me and tea have spend almost 20 years together......It always help me to get over the tough time...Whenever I want to think over something, it was there with me...In all my up-downs as far as i can remember apart from my family and some friends,it was there.

As my life has seen many up and downs in the same way tea has also seen many forms...In my views tea is not only used to wake up in the morning besides it serves many other purposes....

Now i am going to tell some of my experiences with having tea in background.
TEA AT GEC, UJJAIN: - As I can remember when I was doing graduation from GEC, Ujjain...there all our gossips were based around tea since at that time we were short of money usually so the scene was like 4-5 friends are sited around a stove or heater and gossiping or leg pulling each other while tea is getting ready and whenever any new person joins we put some more water in tea (without considering the quality) and start gossiping again....At that we had hardly 2-3 glasses so all 10-12 people take their tea in those limited glasses together.
Lots of proposals(poor gals!!!) were planed around tea. Lots of arguments settled around tea. All our tensions related to love, luck, carrier and life were ressolved(basically forgetted..) at tea. At the time of exam, we used to study together and at around 1-2 am we took a break for tea and did lots of gossips(Usually we did gossip all the time but that was official time). I still remember about a friend vikrant who always called us in evening and said “oye!! Main aa raha hu.. chay pilana”..then he came to our room by driving his scooter almost 1 km. sometimes I ask him “yar!!why don’t you take tea at your own place instead of burning your petrol and coming here.” Then he always replied proudly “kanjar!! You will not understand the pleasure when some one is owing you a tea(people are damn rascle) ". So this was our bond with tea.

TEA AT INDORE:-

When I was in Indore preparing for GATE, we (me, upendra, jayant and arun) drink tea more then we drink water. It was like we used to take it to start our day, tea after lunch so that we can read something before taking noon's nap(mind it wasn't sleep). After waking up in noon, we take tea to resume the day(From then i assume,tea is dominating my blood). Then we go to our GATE coaching, in case we reach their early, we went straight to a tea stall to make ourself fresh for class (our prejudice). In case someone is going staright to the class without tea, it was almost like insult to rest of the people(our rules-our regulations).
Hmmm after 1 week or 2 we started feeling that no longer we can afford tea now the primary reason was that a cup of tea cost us 2 Rs/- hence each day 4 tea costs us around 8 Rs per day. But we were not in mood to leave our 5th companion (the tea) so decided to think some alternative .One fine day we got something (which we considered as “bhagwan ne hamari sun li”) That in a nearby poor colony area there is a tea shop where tea cost 1rs/- but the problem was that all labors, rikshawalas kind of people came there .Well after some mind digging arguments we compromised to our status(Now you can imagine our love for tea) .But soon we found there was a new problem ,that shop owner was an ex –freedom fighter .so he always used to speak a lot about old people, old time, new generation etc. Sometimes it was tough to bear him but still we never mind that old man just for sake of our tea. Many times things became severe when that old man drank because then he started his lectures in English. One of his famous dialogue was “peoples are damn rascal”.
Anyway as long as we live there, we bear all this tortures just to mak sure a regular and affordable tea. This was one of sacrifices we made for tea.
TEA AT IIITM:-
After this I qualified GATE and reaches to IIITM, There I got some new friends and retained one old friend (my tea). In IIITM me and my friends (ankit and tushar) gossips a lot around tea. That tea listens very patiently our discussions about all the girls of IIITM (particularly who have boyfriends), some geeks, some bullies, our guide and god (ypp even he can’t save his ass from us). Tea was like ‘amrat’ for us…We became im-mortal during our tea time. All our creativity came in to the picture when we are having tea. I still claim that one of the binding factors of my friendship with tushar and ankit, besides our bad luck was our gossips around tea.
Tea with Vijay: - Besides tushar and ankit, vijay was my good friend (at least from my side) there. Well he was a stub-born critic (I mean it). He was a critic of everything (I mean people, girls, guards, mess workers, seniors, juniors, teachers ,everything ) so when I take tea with him I became the victim of all his frustration. But I never complained just because I don’t want to loose my tea.
STATIONS TEA:-
In any family some people are good which spread the good name of family while some are bad which did bad deeds and whole family suffers for which. In the same way, station’s tea is bad member of otherwise good tea family. This tea has everything that is defaming the tea i.e. more costly, more water then milk, no taste etc.
CORPORATE TEA:-
Till now I have told you about my experiences with tea when i was in college. After my college I joined NSN and reaches to ALTTC Ghaziabad. It was start of my corporate life so my tea has also got some corporate touch. ALTTC was first place where on the name of corporate my tea has bear lots of humiliation and insult. Here on the name of tea we got hot water, milk powder, tea powder, sugar powder everything separately. The scene was like a body is divided into its basic elements. Personally for me it was like separation of a great gang of friends which when together forget their individual colors. In short ALTTC people raped my first love. But soon I discover that everywhere in corporate tea got the same treatment.
FIGHT TO SURVIVE:-
The biggest competition of tea is coffee. The coffee is becoming the status symbol now. With some nice slogans like “a lot can happen over coffee” it is replacing the tea slowly. But I strongly feel that besides corruption, tea is other thing that connects nation. Coffee belongs to rich people while tea belongs to ‘ aam aadmi’. In different states the form of breakfast may change but tea will be integral part everywhere.
Me and my father is very good friend and I feel there are 3 reasons for this:
(1) We have good understanding. (2) Cricket (3) ready for tea anytime.
Out of this I know 3rd reason is most irrelevant but believe me that is most important.
So whatever I am writing here, you can take it as genetic motivation. I can confidently say that in my blood there will be more tea then any other liquid.
As a true lover of tea this was my salute to tea.

To Sir With Love

Whenevr i try to fill any slam book...Only two field makes me think a lot...one was 'ideal person in ur life' and the other was 'your favourite teacher'...Really whenever i want to write something in these coloumns, a great debate STARTS in my mind...These may be simple questions for anybody but really it PISSES me to the irritation...Some of the common answers of former question will be 'Mahatma Gandhi','Abraham Lincoln','Mother Teresa', 'My Mummy','My Daddy'.....
All these people may be great but i have different philosophy and a different way to look at things.I believe that they had struggled a lot and work hard for some noble reaosns in their lives but somewhere i was unable to attach my self to their circumstances....i also thought why is it necessary to make a super hero as our ideal???Just because majority worships them,never convince me fully...
About My mother and father;They really work hard for us and burn their life for our enjoyment and up to some extent i M proud to be a part of them but after spending years in this world and after looking for answers of the same 2 old qoestions...i found someone more close to reality...
I met him in my 1st class of second phase of training....he taught us for 5 days....this was very short time to know some one...In the starting he was like any other good teacher i.e. simple,understanding,hard working....but THE TIME WE PASSED TOGETHER MADE US TO KNOW HIM BETTER...We became the fan of the way he taught even complex things very easily....he knows all the important things and if he dnt knw something he TOLD us straightly ..he told us to focus more and more on practical knowledge...he was the man with fine sense of humour...Being PERSON WITH GOOD HUMOUR, i know how difficult it is to make people laugh for 10 minutes...but he did that and we never ever seen even a trace of smile over his face..he was always serious whether teaching something,sharing some of his past 'should-not-tell' failures....His sense of humour was really of a fine class....i may call him 'God Of Sense OF Humour'....ALL the jokes about his wife,about foreign women,telecom companies,money , managers, bosses,his kid has MADE A PLACE IN OUR MEMORY.

Apart from his knowledge the thing i admired most about him was his hard work and dedication for his work....Our class timing was 9:00-5:00 officially but all other teachers left their sudents much before that but he always came before time...teach most of the time..and leaves the class at 5:15-5:30pm....In his class he always said if you really want to come then only come,whenever you want to go out don't ask me just go out...If you are feeling sleepy, sleep in the class because may be in middle of ur sleep you may catch some words that will later prove beneficial for you....
All these things were ok but the way he speaks about life,practical difficulties in between his lectures was awesome....
I still recall the day when we were going to visit site,he was in our cab and our cab struck in traffic so to kill our time we started to play music but that man had some other plans...He started asking questions to us and whenever someone is not giving answer he started discussing their doubts...i mean in cab...in the middle of gurgaon...GOD DAMN....
On one topic whole class was confused so he TAUGHT us that topic 8 times in 2 days.....WAO....I mean even i was irritated but still he was calm and cool....Though he belongs to south india, He taught us in hindi,english and except 2-3 times talking over phones no one can say that he is good in only 1-2 languages..he was good in both the languages...and he has the capability to put his ''respected' humour in both the languages...
He always told us about his failures and that too in very humouruos way...His practical knowledge was of the level of legends...His lectueres were well prepared that makes him a perfect teacher...He always motivates us to take risk in life because for him that is the only way of learning...Despite having a good job and so much knowledge,his zeal to prepare for GMAT was respectable....His knowledge,sense of humour ,dedication and straight forward nature impressed to the deep core of my heart...Yes Mr. Ramesh Kumar you are my favourite teacer and ideal person of my life...I REALLY WANT TO BE LIKE YOU as a PERSONALITY someday....

Well in this blog,i will not write any of my creation...rather i am dedicating this blog to some of my favourite lines written by somebody else:
(1) Khata ho gayi aaj, k dil phir udas hai...
lafj phir khule nhi, kehne ko sansar hai...
dil bhi na tute, vo bhi na ruthe...
keh do kuch aisa ,k rutha phir tayyar hai...
Rat k hatheli pe, chand dhundhne phira...
ruk gaye kadam, jab yar samne mila...
ham bhi na bole, vo bhi na bole...
par kaha suna bahut kuch, jo ankhon se bayan hai...
Sath the kisi zamane me ham, tab dil ka ashiyan saza rakha tha...
khwabon k gharondo me, sapno ko bitha rakha tha...
vo tut gaye to kya hua, vo dur hue to kya hua...
ab bas main aur tanhayiyan hain, unhi se dil laga rkha hai...
Dil ke rahi ham hai nikle, chahat ke bazar me sapne the...
sach karne the, jo tut gaye...
har haal me nayi kahani ke naye patra phir ayenge is dwar se...
ham to bas yahi kahenge,na ja is andhkar me.
BY:Sneha Swaroop
Student-Friend
JNCT,BHOPAL

(2) Saaya bankar sath chalenge iske bharose mat rahna...

apne hamesha apne rahenge iske bharose mat rahna...

bahti nadi me kachcHe ghade hain rishte nate pyar wafa...

ye sada yu hi bahte rahenge iske bharose mat rahna...

sooraj ki manind safar pe roj niklna padta hai....

baithe baithe din badlenge....iske bharose mat rahna...

PANKAJ UDHAS

MAHEK(ALBUM)

(3) Kyu rakhu me kalam me syahi,jab koi armaan hi dil me nahi machalata...

Jane kyu log shaq karte hain mujhpe,jab koi sookhja phool meri pustak me nahi niklata...

Kashish to bahut hai mere pyar me,par kya karu jab koi patthar dil nahi pighalta...

Milega khuda to us se apna pyar mangenge,par suna hai wo bhi marne se pahle kisi se nahi milta...

Last day at ALTTC

17Dec was our last day in ALTTC....Whole night we did our packing...We were excited to shift to gurgaon.....but smthng was wrong.....Every one was happy but really smthng was unusual....From so many days we were waiting 4 our first phase to complete and to go to gurgaon....as we have hear much about gurgaon's office......but as the time was arrived i was getting little nervous and i feel as i m leaving smthng behind......I went to top floor where am i used to spend sometime alone whenever i feel alone...i was sitting in a corner and thinking about all those nights when i came there...i was thinking about all the things which I did in ALTTC as i again started playing badminton....Very few people knw that i left playing badminton after a worst defeat in school in 11th class..but with friends like karan,manjit i again started. Initially i was scared because that defeat broke me at that time but after few shots i was feeling that i am not that bad though not good either but fine atleast...second thing which reminds of ALTTC was our group prformance in a function...I performed a MIME though central charater steals the show but for someone who never came on stage it was fabulous...then dance....I was never ready for that step dance..and i took maximum time to learn it...but hats off to jagadish who always told me that i knw you, you can do it man..it is nothing in front of you...he wasted his 2 Damn fucking days with us...and he bring a performance out of us...Some thanks to gautam and manjit also who maintain positive atmosphere whole the time..thirdly ALTTC will remind me my bad performances in tests...i did worst not because i was not good in these things...it was just that whole time i was unable to give my 100% just because i was unable to connect myself to these studies...i did well in my past..n will do in future also...But i was too busy in my personal life that i was unable to concentrate..

Then i came back to my room n started putting my luggage at ground floor....the scene was awesome there...as everyone was keeping their luggage there...so lots of bags,laptops were there...then i went to mess..n i was watching the expression of every face....some excitement,some fear,some tensions were there.....Mess WORKERS were talking extra decently n politely 2 every1...then we BROUGHT our luggage towards THE bus n put it there....n then we started a fight to capture the seat 4 ourself and our frnds..so that we can enjoy the rest of journey with our frnds...Here one more drama was waiting for me as whenevr i put my hand on some seat sum 1 shouted hey dis seat is reserved 4 kedar....almost 5-6 seats were reserved 4 kedar...i came to see kedar den i found he is a 4 ft guy....fuck..was first word came out of my mouth...AS anyway then i reserved seat 4 me,saurabh,karan n navneet...i want to sit besided saurabh purposely coz i want to talk few things to him...As on previous night because of some 3rd person he went angry to me...then we discussed all the issues..and i convinced him....then i started playing music....suddenly a strong sound of some music came in my ear..i looked back to see who he was....then i found it was a guy anshul...who is famous 4 hiis usha utthup type voice.....Every one else was either enjoying songs or were sleeping...suddenly the whole atmosphere reversed..and one group sarted playing antakshari....then some more joins them..then some more...Ultimately 4 seats around me became one team and 2 rows from back became other team....and we started playing antakshari(the great game 4 girls)...It was fun for us and hell for those who were not participated....so we played the game for almost 2-3 hr...dnt knw who won...but we end the game after reaching the hotel only....then as we alraedy got the list of our RESPECTIVE rooms and room-mates so we started moving towards the rooms...Since 90% people were not happy with their roommates and most of us want to retain our roommates so we decided to swap the room...This task could be much easy if we have to swap directly but the problem arises as this person will go there and next person will go somewhere else but other guy dont wana come here..so we started a chain of rooms and roommates...i cant forget the moment when me,ravi singla and gautam were solving this puzzle on a piece of paper...Now can you believe in this chain i changed7 roommates and 5 rooms in 10 mins...Finally i got my old roomy(short name for room-mates)...when we shiefted our room as per our wish finally..We got a call from our respected line manager that no one can change their rooms....FUCK second time in a day i said in frustartion....
Then i was again carrying my bbbbbag to my actually alloted room-mate...Well second day again we change the rooms with the risk that we have putted our butts on fire....In the evening we went to ambience mall..a famous one.....first time i saw bowling game....and fundoo club kind atmosphere....i was missing something desperadly....After coming back i dnt like few things that happens on my way back but this was my last day in ALTTC n first in GURGAON....In night i said WELCOME TO GURGAON ARVIND MERI JAAN...n i slept with the feeling that i will always miss ALTTC GHAZIABAD.......

Jindgi

Bina khilauno k bachpan gujar aaye hain...

Hum apne mann ko bahut pahle mar aaye hain...

Hamare pass sukh aaye h magar hawa ke jhonko pe hokar sawar aaye hain...

Jeetne gaye the jo kal bade bade sapne...

To chhoti chhoti khushiya bhi haar aaye hain...

Gaye the bhool se hum gamo ki taraf fir wo khud hi hamare pass bar bar aaye hain...

Kahan dhundhe jakar jindgani ko...

Hum use dono jahan me pukar aaye hain...

Teri rahi sabhi kante uthata har pal...

Par kya kare sanse hi do-char lekar aaye hain...

Hum

Koi Khwab in ankho ne sajaya hi nahi...

Apne dil kigahrayi ko koi samajh paya hi nahi...

Kisi ko mahsus ho kami hamari...

Khuda ne hame aisa banaya hi nahi....

Review of avatar

Yesterday we went to watch movie "Avatar" of James cameron...it is really worth watching this movie...an awesome movie....an epic of good and evil....After a long time,i was watching an alien based movie which was justified me in its reason of fight.....Somewhere it gives me message that the way we are roaming the worlds in our galaxy it can disturb anyone's life on other planet....There are very rare movies based on human and alien,in which humns are epicted as villains...Otherwise all movies follow one common pattern i.e. alien are villain....they came on earth to control it...End is always predicted in such movies....But Avatar was different ....The direction was classy,the background score was ultimate but it was the special effects that steals the show.I think it is a must watch movie for every person who consider himself as literate-movies-fan. I watched this movie with 18 other people..most of them used to listen english songs,used to raed novels and they didnt like it....i was thinking about it....i felt there must be two reasons i.e. the movie wasn't really fine n secondly there level of thinking was still unmatured. one thing was clear from this that to enjoy a movie,you need to connect yourself to movie. Most og the guys were blaming baout dialogues,that there should be subtitles.....Now i am thinking that if you don't like something what is the need to show off....why to listen english songs just for the sake of others or why to read famous novels just so that you can maintain your so called status in public....

Lessons of life

From last few days i was feeling damn alone....i dnt why but i was missing all my GEC frnds n IIIT frnds.....i was thinking abt all the gud time we had 2gether...

Here i was noticing dat no 1 has time 4 any1...every 1 want 2 say their own things while no one is in interesed in others points, every1 is thinking that he know more then others(1st sign of ignorance)..every 1 is thinking abt their own happiness.....Dis thing i hv nvr seen in my past frnds...so i was doing my best 2 give time to people...i was trying 2 listen them....then i feel in middle of this that i started expecting smthng from them...which was never my way of treating life..i was expecting time from them...how foolish i was 2 expect such thing...So on the night of 18 i decided 2 give some time to myself....i called my best friend(me) n talk 2 him 4 almost 15 mins....he listens 2 me patientely n gave me some valuable tips....then i hv decided that frm nw on i'll nt expext anythng from any1 and i'll give full time to myself,doesn't what others are thinking...now i am getting good results...i am feeling more happy as now i am doing things whcih i really want to do..and no i am giving time 2 most imp person in my life yes dats ME now...

NAFRAT

NAFRAT ME TO USKI AAJ BHI KOI ANTAR NAHI AAYA...
KAMAL H BAHUT DINO SE UDHAR SE KOI PATTHAR NAHI AAYA...
KAMI NAHI H YAHAN LINE TODNE WALO KI...
MAIN US SE MILNE KO LINE ME LAGA THA TO NUMBER NAHI AAYA...
MAIN USE CHHODNE JATA THA DO MEEL DOOR PAIDAL BUS TAK...
WO DARWAJE TAK BAHAR NAHI AAYA...
AAJ BHI UMMEED H USKE DIL KI KHIDKI KHULEGI MERE LIYE...
DARWAJA TOD DU AISA TO ABHI SAMAY NAHI AAYA...

INTJAR....

KAHI CHHAT THI DEEWARE THI KAHI...
MILA MUJHKO MERE GHAR KA PATA KUCH DER SE...
DIYA TO BAHUT KUCH JINDGI NE MUJHE...
PAR JO BHI DIYA WO DIYA DER SE...
HUA NA KOIA KAAM MERA AASANI SE...
GUJARE HAMNE DIN AUR RAAT KUCH IS TARAH...
KABHI CHAND CHAMKA GALAT WAQT PE KABHI SOORAJ UGA DER SE....

MUFLISI

JAB WO MERE PASS SE HASKAR GUJAR GAYE,
KUCH KHAS DOSTO K BHI CHEHRE UTAR GAYE,
AFSOS DOOBNE KI TAMANNA HI RAH GAYI,
TUFAN JINDGI ME AAYE YU HI GUJAR GAYE,
KOI HAME BHI BATAYE HUM KYA JAWAB DE,
MANJIL YE POOCHTI H SATHI KIDHAR GAYE.....