Yes Boss

“Taarif teri nikli h dil se aayi h lab pe banke qawwali”….my phone was ringing. This was my ringtone…i was sleeping..and the most irritating thing for me is to have a call during sleep..anyway I gathered myself and take a look at my watch it was showing 9:30am..i murmured “ohh god who the hell is at this time”..and I pick up my phone it says “calling boss..and a devil smily was dancing there (this is the only way 4 most of the employee to settle there score against there boss)”anyway by the time I pick the call it was converted into a miss call….and as a frustrated employee I have decided that I will tell others that my boss is a cheap guy who always give me miss call.how cheap….

Anyway I called him and said “hello good morning sir, this is arvind u called me” (I said this in a micro part of second. And don’t think that it is just formality; any word missing and my respected boss will get a chance to start his lecture on dignity, manners and discipline)….

Boss: yes arvind. You haven’t took my call…

Me: yes sir I was bathing.

Boss: yar call to utha liya karo.(so now I should take my phone in to bathroom). Anyway arvind..when are you coming 2 office?/

Me: sir 10:30(dats the official time so when he is expecting me???/)

Boss:ok lets meet then. Today we are going to have a meeting about your cluster allocation. Tell it to everybody (3 of my room mates).

Me:ok sir. ( who am I a peon or smthng??/)Sir (I said in very low voice) I dnt want to go outside Ahmedabad and in particular to Rajkot.

Boss: and why so???

Me: sir, I am new to this state. Rajkot will be tough for me and will be further away from my home. And all of my friends are in surat and ahmeadbad. In fact I will be ok with baroda as it is near to mp.

Boss: don’t worry Arvind!! Since you have told me everything , we will come up with the best possible solution (diplomatic words).

Me: good day sir.

He said nothing and put my phone down.

And I knw since some meeting is there. So it is not going to be a GOOD DAY for me.

AFTER 2 TOUGH HOURS: (a meeting is going in which my cluster head is telling us our locations, my boss is also there)

Cluster head: vinay (room mate 1) you will stay in ahmedabad, vaibhav(room mate 2) youbwill go surat and arvind you will take care of Rajkot circle.

My head was down and I was thinking about the office girls of ahmedabad suddenly my six sense awares me of this bad news…I was surprised and my expressions were as if manmohan proposed soniya Gandhi…and that too in style and I was thinking that how come…I mean really how come..it possibly be true…I was searching for my boss…his head was down and though he was silent, somewhere It occurred to me dat he is smiling….and suddenly I realizes what is the meaning of “devil is sitting in the corner and laughing”.

Anyway after the meeting over I went straight to my boss.

My boss: yes arvind you are looking very happy..(now that is too much of you monster, I was thinking)

Me; sir.i told you..(he interrupts me)

MY boss: arvind this is start of your career. You should not have so home sickness.(home sickness to me????i m living away from home since class 10^th.)

Me: sir but…(he again interuupts me)

My boss: arvind it is fine place..once you reached there, you will be thankful to us..it is famous for mango.( so I should choose the place since mango is cheap there. only this monster can think like this.) I am also coming there.(now it make the matter worse..)

Me: ok…sir!! When I suppose to join there???

My boss: 2day itself….it is 12:30…it takes 3 hr to reach there. So call me from a local STD at around 5 pm. And good luck for your coming days. (I guess I will need that).

Me : sir but…(he again interrupts me)

My boss: arvind I am so busy. I will talk to you in few mins (“get out” in sugar coated language) .

Finally I joined Rajkot with a broken heart. And later I came to know that my “respected boss” canceled his transfer of rajkot. I dnt know whether I was happy or sad. But the reason he gave was that “Rajkot is far from everywhere”….

PS: This is not a kind of regular of my writing as I m not getting any time and the mind set to writing something good. Take this blog as a commercial break.

For all guys: you can use any words suitable to you in place of ’monster’.

For all girls: use strictly ‘monster’ as nothing less then that can justify my feelings.

a loneliness that is not alone...

From many years I was wondering that why a new born child cry so much??

I mean what is the point in crying…..you r coming in a new world..you are getting a new shape…there are lots of celebrations….you should be smiling….and really many time I got irritated of this…but when I reached to Rajkot…I got a full chance to understand what is wrong with an infant.…I am in Rajkot from last 1 week…and this week was like hell..I dnt know anybody in Rajkot…don’t know means really don’t know any damn body…..except 2 people…both were my colleague in Ahmadabad but in different deptt. When I was in Ahmadabad I have a hi-bi relation with both of them (all in all 4 times hi and bi in 2 months to both)….so these are my closest here…

Anyway I was getting the feeling dat how it feels when you are in a different state..much away from your parents and friends,,,you are at a place when no body understands your language…they dnt know what you want to speak, neither they care….when they are responding you, you dnt knw what they are saying…everything looks stranger to you…you are using your eyes and hands to make you understand more then your vocals…you dnt know what people are talking around you…you dnt know how to express yourself in their language..i was feeling like crying with highest peak of my vocal chords…and now I got it why a new born infant cry so much….

I am all alone….believe me guys when you have some work or a good company of friends then you will never realize how quickly time passes…but when you are alone and dnt have much to do then you can sense even a tick of second of your clock….

This loneliness has its huge losses on your thinking really…it started chewing you...your thinking will be tends to negative…you will feel that everybody is busy, except you….no one bothers to know how are you…no one has the time to ask what you are doing..you are in the list of no one’s priority…no one cares whether you are dead or alive….really and suddenly in a moments you will justify everything…like suicide too…

That was my mental condition in 1^st week in rajkot…I was kind of fighting with my self…I believe that everybody has a good part and a devil part…and any one of them will rule your mind depending on whom you are giving more energy..and suddenly my mind becomes the devil’s workshop..

But after this I think a lot and decided to use this loneliness in my favor…I have decided to make my self sufficient busy…so that I can get rid of this negativity….i have decided to give this time to myself…to my hobbies..to develop new skills…to know people…to make myself happy…to make others happy…to know where actually I am going….to find what is my destiny…

I know the present time is toughest time in my life and it will be for 1 full year…as I am starting everything from scratch…just after 3 months theoretical training I have joined on field….zero practical knowledge as such..new city..new people….regionalism…office politics…bad boss…away from almost every one you know…know one like you..you are the unwanted party…and everyone looks you as an intruder..

But I have decided I will not surrender….i will fight….i will fight till the end of night….

I always believe that every city has certain symbols, certain codes (I know I am sounding like dan brown).. and to be comfortable with a city or a culture you have to put your breathe in synchronization to that of cities….you have to understand its codes..you have to give respect to its values,its peoples…you have to leave all your prejudices…then only you will feel comfortable….then only you can make it like home…

So if I can be able to survive in these conditions then it will be biggest confidence booster forever….