Intoxic moments

It was a dark night. I was coming back after dinner, Alone as usual. This was 20-50 or may be 60th time I took my dinner alone. I hate this fact. Wheather was little rainy, little in the sense that it was cloudy. I was feeling alone so decided to go in a near by park and lit a cigarette. I am not a smoker-habitually, rather I am an occasional smoker and my occasion consumes 1-2 cigarette in each 4-5 days. I rested myself on a bench in park and started a song on my mobile. The song was “maine dil se kaha dhundh lana khushi….” It seems that song was written 4 me otherwise how can it be so suited to situation. I closed my eyes. I wasn’t thinking anything. I just don’t want to think anything, not about job or family or friends. I just wanted to be with "me". I wanted to spend this moment with me. I was staring in blank with closed eyes. I didn’t know whether it was magic of every line of song or every passing smoky breathe or the wheather itself but I started feeling good. I never feel so intoxicated in my whole life even after many pegs of any alcohol. It seemed that together rain, night, song and smoke did some magic on me. I was feeling that in the darkness of night, darkness of my loneliness has dissolved somewhere. I was feeling completely harmonized with atmosphere. I was comparing my situation with that of sky. We both are alone; both have darkness around them, both wants to cry and both wants to live this particular moment. Then it started raining heavily but I didn’t want to move from there. I was getting wet and my cigarette was also over and the song too was complete. Then I feel that the moment is over and I have enjoyed one of the finest moment in last few days that too at cost of 4rs. 10 minutes of happiness at a cost of 4rs, not a bad deal. Isn’t it?