Excuse me.....

Who m I??

what I want from life???

These were some of the basic questions I was asking from myself from years….never get the right answers…and I know that to find the answers of some of such basic questions and to grow up in a competitive world, one needs to take a break at regular interval and to self examine the things going around him from a neutral- emotion less point of view.

I also took many breaks and try to find the answers of some the question which were bothering me. Now I realized I really give things a break As again I am at a point of life when questions are many at every front. Some social responsibilities are lying ahead, some weaknesses of my own personality, and the question to measure ourselves on to the scale of this world. I know it does not matter how much a philosopher or asocial u are , sooner or later you have to judge yourself on some of the worldly measures also.

I spend many years of my life to make people happy, to live for family and friends. Enjoy doing my responsibilities but but but…

Now I really want to know who I am actually?

What I actually want?

Till now I did enough to remember as a good son or good friend or decent human being but is that enough?

No really….

There is one more fight everyone is fighting to prove our self on worldly measures, as ayan rand says: only the strong has the right to survive.

I want to survive. I want to prove myself on a completely different front. I know many of you will not be agree with you but now it will not matter for me.

2-3 days ago I got 1 sms: if you wants to fly with eagle don’t practice with duck…..

And that justify it….

I am going for a makeover. A make over which is due on personal matters, character and social relations.

I live enough to be “a social animal” , now I wants to live like a “maverick”…I wants to live without prejudice, without commitments, without promises. I wants to taste a mental freedom. I promise you guys that soon I’ll discover the new arvind and I will not be able to get, I will create one….

Let’s get in to this fight and as they said: may the best man survive.

I will be back soon till then please excuse me……..

PS: My last blog “thanks maa” drained me completely. After that I try to write many times but just did not get “that” mentality. So I have decided to take a break and it’s just the announcement of that break. Many people will not understand this blog as it’s the picture of my mind. And I know this blog is not uniform but then whose mind is uniform anyway?