Yes Boss

“Taarif teri nikli h dil se aayi h lab pe banke qawwali”….my phone was ringing. This was my ringtone…i was sleeping..and the most irritating thing for me is to have a call during sleep..anyway I gathered myself and take a look at my watch it was showing 9:30am..i murmured “ohh god who the hell is at this time”..and I pick up my phone it says “calling boss..and a devil smily was dancing there (this is the only way 4 most of the employee to settle there score against there boss)”anyway by the time I pick the call it was converted into a miss call….and as a frustrated employee I have decided that I will tell others that my boss is a cheap guy who always give me miss call.how cheap….

Anyway I called him and said “hello good morning sir, this is arvind u called me” (I said this in a micro part of second. And don’t think that it is just formality; any word missing and my respected boss will get a chance to start his lecture on dignity, manners and discipline)….

Boss: yes arvind. You haven’t took my call…

Me: yes sir I was bathing.

Boss: yar call to utha liya karo.(so now I should take my phone in to bathroom). Anyway arvind..when are you coming 2 office?/

Me: sir 10:30(dats the official time so when he is expecting me???/)

Boss:ok lets meet then. Today we are going to have a meeting about your cluster allocation. Tell it to everybody (3 of my room mates).

Me:ok sir. ( who am I a peon or smthng??/)Sir (I said in very low voice) I dnt want to go outside Ahmedabad and in particular to Rajkot.

Boss: and why so???

Me: sir, I am new to this state. Rajkot will be tough for me and will be further away from my home. And all of my friends are in surat and ahmeadbad. In fact I will be ok with baroda as it is near to mp.

Boss: don’t worry Arvind!! Since you have told me everything , we will come up with the best possible solution (diplomatic words).

Me: good day sir.

He said nothing and put my phone down.

And I knw since some meeting is there. So it is not going to be a GOOD DAY for me.

AFTER 2 TOUGH HOURS: (a meeting is going in which my cluster head is telling us our locations, my boss is also there)

Cluster head: vinay (room mate 1) you will stay in ahmedabad, vaibhav(room mate 2) youbwill go surat and arvind you will take care of Rajkot circle.

My head was down and I was thinking about the office girls of ahmedabad suddenly my six sense awares me of this bad news…I was surprised and my expressions were as if manmohan proposed soniya Gandhi…and that too in style and I was thinking that how come…I mean really how come..it possibly be true…I was searching for my boss…his head was down and though he was silent, somewhere It occurred to me dat he is smiling….and suddenly I realizes what is the meaning of “devil is sitting in the corner and laughing”.

Anyway after the meeting over I went straight to my boss.

My boss: yes arvind you are looking very happy..(now that is too much of you monster, I was thinking)

Me; sir.i told you..(he interrupts me)

MY boss: arvind this is start of your career. You should not have so home sickness.(home sickness to me????i m living away from home since class 10^th.)

Me: sir but…(he again interuupts me)

My boss: arvind it is fine place..once you reached there, you will be thankful to us..it is famous for mango.( so I should choose the place since mango is cheap there. only this monster can think like this.) I am also coming there.(now it make the matter worse..)

Me: ok…sir!! When I suppose to join there???

My boss: 2day itself….it is 12:30…it takes 3 hr to reach there. So call me from a local STD at around 5 pm. And good luck for your coming days. (I guess I will need that).

Me : sir but…(he again interrupts me)

My boss: arvind I am so busy. I will talk to you in few mins (“get out” in sugar coated language) .

Finally I joined Rajkot with a broken heart. And later I came to know that my “respected boss” canceled his transfer of rajkot. I dnt know whether I was happy or sad. But the reason he gave was that “Rajkot is far from everywhere”….

PS: This is not a kind of regular of my writing as I m not getting any time and the mind set to writing something good. Take this blog as a commercial break.

For all guys: you can use any words suitable to you in place of ’monster’.

For all girls: use strictly ‘monster’ as nothing less then that can justify my feelings.

a loneliness that is not alone...

From many years I was wondering that why a new born child cry so much??

I mean what is the point in crying…..you r coming in a new world..you are getting a new shape…there are lots of celebrations….you should be smiling….and really many time I got irritated of this…but when I reached to Rajkot…I got a full chance to understand what is wrong with an infant.…I am in Rajkot from last 1 week…and this week was like hell..I dnt know anybody in Rajkot…don’t know means really don’t know any damn body…..except 2 people…both were my colleague in Ahmadabad but in different deptt. When I was in Ahmadabad I have a hi-bi relation with both of them (all in all 4 times hi and bi in 2 months to both)….so these are my closest here…

Anyway I was getting the feeling dat how it feels when you are in a different state..much away from your parents and friends,,,you are at a place when no body understands your language…they dnt know what you want to speak, neither they care….when they are responding you, you dnt knw what they are saying…everything looks stranger to you…you are using your eyes and hands to make you understand more then your vocals…you dnt know what people are talking around you…you dnt know how to express yourself in their language..i was feeling like crying with highest peak of my vocal chords…and now I got it why a new born infant cry so much….

I am all alone….believe me guys when you have some work or a good company of friends then you will never realize how quickly time passes…but when you are alone and dnt have much to do then you can sense even a tick of second of your clock….

This loneliness has its huge losses on your thinking really…it started chewing you...your thinking will be tends to negative…you will feel that everybody is busy, except you….no one bothers to know how are you…no one has the time to ask what you are doing..you are in the list of no one’s priority…no one cares whether you are dead or alive….really and suddenly in a moments you will justify everything…like suicide too…

That was my mental condition in 1^st week in rajkot…I was kind of fighting with my self…I believe that everybody has a good part and a devil part…and any one of them will rule your mind depending on whom you are giving more energy..and suddenly my mind becomes the devil’s workshop..

But after this I think a lot and decided to use this loneliness in my favor…I have decided to make my self sufficient busy…so that I can get rid of this negativity….i have decided to give this time to myself…to my hobbies..to develop new skills…to know people…to make myself happy…to make others happy…to know where actually I am going….to find what is my destiny…

I know the present time is toughest time in my life and it will be for 1 full year…as I am starting everything from scratch…just after 3 months theoretical training I have joined on field….zero practical knowledge as such..new city..new people….regionalism…office politics…bad boss…away from almost every one you know…know one like you..you are the unwanted party…and everyone looks you as an intruder..

But I have decided I will not surrender….i will fight….i will fight till the end of night….

I always believe that every city has certain symbols, certain codes (I know I am sounding like dan brown).. and to be comfortable with a city or a culture you have to put your breathe in synchronization to that of cities….you have to understand its codes..you have to give respect to its values,its peoples…you have to leave all your prejudices…then only you will feel comfortable….then only you can make it like home…

So if I can be able to survive in these conditions then it will be biggest confidence booster forever….

love ..life ..and me...

I was thinking from so many days, months and years about love…sometimes conclude that it is so unimportant topic that I should not think over it but sometimes feel that this one thing is every where ..it lies in everything and one who unveils its true meaning, will got the key to make this world beautiful ….

Unarguably there are different ways to love a person but here I want to focus one particular form which is most famous and talked about.

I am not talking about mother’s love not father’s love. It is the love of a lover that I want to discuss…

There will not be any answer if I ask why someone falls in love…now let me figure out some of the possible reasons (n ya I am writing on behalf of guys..): I like her because she is very beautiful…because she is only girl around me…because we are with each other from past few time…she helped me a lot during something….we are chat friend from sometime now…n blaw blaw blaw…but I am afraid that love is so a big word to put in any small limit….

It is very difficult to differentiate true love from attraction, infatuation, crush etc…as far as I think true love is something that if happens in life..changes the way of life…it gives a meaning to life ..give new reasons to live….it makes life beautiful…it has power to transform one’s life…it gives a positive attitude for the life…a new way to look at the world and people…it brings the best of you outside….

Though people believe that if someone is trying to change you then it is not love but I feel true love is one where one person want to change other to make him focus on his path of destination…to change him for his better..to give him small pain so that he/she can get big happiness…but it is really difficult to recognize love…many time it happens that after losing some one we realize their value in our life….

People believe that if you love someone then you should tell them as early as possible about your feelings…but I m nt at all agree over this, what I feel is that if we love some one then first we need to know what role we can play in his/her life. ..and in what way our feelings affect that person….if that person is happy with the way things are going in his/her life and we feel that by telling somebody about your feeling may make things difficult then is there any need to tell them….???

Love is when you fit yourself in somebody’s life that whenever he/she looks at you they feel secure…true love is to give care without expecting anything in return….if you are expecting something then it is no longer love…..n it will hurt badly….love is not to love some one and expect something from them or committed to spend whole life with some one…contrary to a common belief I don’t think it is compulsory to convert a relation into marriage…..really…if I know well in advance that I am going to marrying someone then I will care her for obvious reasons….the risk should be their….rather if I feel I am the one who can give her more happiness without hurting even a single person related to her then only it will justify its value…no love can ever hurt anybody…I mean how it can be????

To care some one without telling them about your feelings, to fit in their life to make them complete without expecting a company for whole life…to bear the pain and give the best is the beauty of love and life….

For me the love is to make them laugh till it hurts, to tease them, to make them forget all problems, tensions. To hold them when they feel low, to clap even at small achievements, to make them feel special…that’s my definition of love….

I don’t know why people behave so strangely when they came to know about somebody’s feelings for them…I think it is always a special feeling that somebody loves you, think about you and for at least one that person you are most important thing in life… one should welcome such feelings and always respect those persons in life because it is always difficult to find a heart which have feelings for you besides it is encouraging to know that you have something which someone is liking….

In my life I meet many people and many time I feel I was in love but sooner or later I got it that sometimes it was attraction or I was impressed or many things….now spending a considerable part of life, when I look back I found that all the time I got very good friends…but never find anybody who can understand me fully….though some friends were really worth of life but they came for very sort period of 1-2 year….and I wait a lot for somebody to come and love me without reasons….but then I feel that, to love somebody or to worthy of somebody’s love you need to love yourself….that is first and foremost imp task…..now I started loving me…I m loving things around me…I m giving time to myself….and then I realize that I got a true and final love of my life….yppn that’s ME……now I m in love with myself…..

me....

My first week is over in job and in ahmedabad….and I still don’t know the kind of work I have to do. I have decided in myself that I will give my 100% to whatever comes my way. I am assuming that I don’t know anything and I need to learn a lot so I am asking basic questions and trying to be happy in whatever people are giving to me. But somewhere I am not happy…I am not satisfied…I don’t know whether I m not happy coz I am not satisfied or not satisfied coz I am not happy…
Every day I am waking up with new hope, going to office with more enthusiasm but every night when I am going to sleep I am unable to justify myself why I did the whole day…
I am going to office but there is no one to even notice it…no one is there to notice what I am doing. Some one is saying do this or that…but nothing seems meaningful…I am doing my best to utilize my time as I know there are lots of things to work on…
Even in myself…I need to improve a lot but I am unable to get the peace of mind…
I know its time to gather all the pieces of jigsaw puzzle of my life and to go on…
I know I have just started a journey and lot more to see, to come and I have to prepare myself accordingly. I know it is the crunch time of life..2-3 years down the line can make or break my carrier. It is the time when I have to justify who I am, what actually I want and to go on…
I am neither tired nor afraid just confuse….little confuse…but
Best part of this confusion is that first time in my life I am thinking about the things that are important, that matters…
I just need some power some courage so that first I can choose the right path and then precede on that path….and to fulfill what people are expecting from me…

Life is a journey and every individual is a passenger…now days I can really feeling this from the core of my heart…
My life has reached to ahmedabad….and after long time I m coming to write something in the blog….it is not that I haven’t got the time but I haven’t got the particular mind set to write something…last 1 month time was very happening and was full of events…there were lots of things to discuss like my Amritsar trip, jaipur trip, my friendship with vinay and balraj and last days at gurgaon… later on I will pen down for all this but this time let me tell u my present days coz now a days my mind is in very consciously ‘unconscious’ state…so I have reached ahmedabad and I have promised myself that now I will take life seriously…So so so….new city..new office..new culture..new people..new challenges and same old me….a different language….all new experiences are welcoming me here….

10-12 ppl of same company but no good friend except vinay…no one has time for other people…every one want to enjoy there life…I m working hard to present myself as a fun loving, open minded animal (that is what I am)…slowly slowly I m preparing for all fights of life..to njoy the life..to learn something …to give my friends and family what they expect from me…
I have stopped thinking now and have decided to go with the flow of life….earlier which was never been my way of living….

Review of Paa...

Yesterday i watch the movie Paa....after watching the movie i have the work of4 people...

(1)The make up team who did well to hide all the traces of amitabh from his 'character 'auro' if you already dont know that amitabh is in this movie then it will be tough to identify him.

(2) Vidya balan, who dared to play the role of amitabh's mother. At her age many actress declined the same role to feared of being type casted. besidees it was a chalenge in itself to perform with amitabh but vidya took the challenge and justify her talent after watching her work in the movie, anyone can say that as an actress she is maturing now and she can be next potential super star.

(3) Amitabh bachchan: it is alwasy easy to play the characters of one's own age and vice versa. and more the difference in ages the more difficult ot play the role. but but but....he did it...that 60 year old man played the role of a 13 year old ,intelligent projeriac boy and god what an acting he did....wao....it seems that he entered in the body of that character...

(4) R. Balki:this was his 2nd movie, while 1st was cheeni kum. Both the movies prove that he has enormous talent and his work shows his maturity.

it is very rare that you are watching a movie of amitabh in main lead and still impressed by somebody else. thats the case with 'auro'. for 2 hour you will forget all your family matters..

USP of Paa is its simplicity. a simple story with simple narativeness. Many times a director tries to each audience and became boring as was the case with RGV in 'NACH' and SUBHASH GHAI in 'YAADEN'...Balki saves himself from greatness of amitabh and shows the sign of promising director.

One more noitciable point of its child actors. In both the movies of R. Balki, chld artist played the striking part and presence was worth watching.

I think Paa is a must watch movie for a tight direction, class make up work and unforgettable acting performance.

Wo Lamhe

(1)Zahar deta to sabki najar me aata,
to yu kiya ki waqt pe dawaye na di,
har kaam saleeke se bant rakha h inhone,
koi aag lagata koi hawa deta hai...
(2) Yad nahi kitni dafaa khud ko dar-b- dar maine kiya,
jane kitni bar tere hisse ka safar maine kiya,
tu to nafrat bhi na kar payega us inteha se,
jis tarah ka pyar tujhse bekhabar maine kiya...