sarfaroshi.....

Sarfaroshi ki tamanna ab hamare dil me hai,
dekhna hai jor kitna baju-e-qatil me hai...
waqt aane de bata denge tujhe e asma,
hum abhi se kya bataye kya hamare dil me hai...
oh re bismil kash aate aaj tum hindustan,
dekhte ki mulk sara kya tashan mahfil me hai....
Aajj ka launda ye kahta hum to bismil thak gaye,
apni ajadi to bhaiya laundiya k dil me hai....
AAj k jalson me bismil ek gunga ga raha,
or behron ka rela naachat mahfil me hai....
haath ki khadi banane ka jamana lad gaya,
Aaj to chaddi bhi silti englishon ki mill me hai.....
PS: i got a msg on my phone..i like it instantly and posting it 2 my blog...

Excuse me.....

Who m I??

what I want from life???

These were some of the basic questions I was asking from myself from years….never get the right answers…and I know that to find the answers of some of such basic questions and to grow up in a competitive world, one needs to take a break at regular interval and to self examine the things going around him from a neutral- emotion less point of view.

I also took many breaks and try to find the answers of some the question which were bothering me. Now I realized I really give things a break As again I am at a point of life when questions are many at every front. Some social responsibilities are lying ahead, some weaknesses of my own personality, and the question to measure ourselves on to the scale of this world. I know it does not matter how much a philosopher or asocial u are , sooner or later you have to judge yourself on some of the worldly measures also.

I spend many years of my life to make people happy, to live for family and friends. Enjoy doing my responsibilities but but but…

Now I really want to know who I am actually?

What I actually want?

Till now I did enough to remember as a good son or good friend or decent human being but is that enough?

No really….

There is one more fight everyone is fighting to prove our self on worldly measures, as ayan rand says: only the strong has the right to survive.

I want to survive. I want to prove myself on a completely different front. I know many of you will not be agree with you but now it will not matter for me.

2-3 days ago I got 1 sms: if you wants to fly with eagle don’t practice with duck…..

And that justify it….

I am going for a makeover. A make over which is due on personal matters, character and social relations.

I live enough to be “a social animal” , now I wants to live like a “maverick”…I wants to live without prejudice, without commitments, without promises. I wants to taste a mental freedom. I promise you guys that soon I’ll discover the new arvind and I will not be able to get, I will create one….

Let’s get in to this fight and as they said: may the best man survive.

I will be back soon till then please excuse me……..

PS: My last blog “thanks maa” drained me completely. After that I try to write many times but just did not get “that” mentality. So I have decided to take a break and it’s just the announcement of that break. Many people will not understand this blog as it’s the picture of my mind. And I know this blog is not uniform but then whose mind is uniform anyway?

Thanks maa...

It was evening of 31^st December; I was thinking how to make my 1^st January special. I have different options like to go in a bar with clg friends, to go 4 some trip (which was on top of priority) or to just sit in the room and have some retrospect. I was just comparing my priorities when I got a call from ankit.

He said tomorrow we are going to an orphanage.

I said what?

He said firmly I am telling you not asking.

With some heavy mind I said ok.

To go in an orphanage on 1^st jan was nowhere in my priority list and I hate it when I have to follow somebody, anyway for the sake of ankit’s friendship I decided to go there.

On the way to my journey I was trying to visualize an orphanage as per my imagination which was based on novels and movies. After a journey of 45 mins we reached there and then the reality hits me back. I met the manager and founder of that orphanage. He was a simple guy and was talking in English. He told us that how he had started this orphanage from 2 kids and 10000 rupees. He told us that he is really unable to provide good lodging and schooling facilities to them. He told us strictly not to take any photo and no to speak anything in front of these kids as they are very sensitive and some of them don’t even know their age, so our questions may arise their curiosity. I was trying to grasp these things when he took us between kids. They were seated randomly on the ground. When they saw us some of them trying to come towards us. Some of them were physically challenged, some mentally little slow but all of them were very enthusiastic to meet us. Some of them were holding our hands and showing us their books, toys, rooms. Some of them were kissing us and wishing for x-mas and New Year. There were kids of 6 months of age to 18 years but you cant guess their age by their physical condition. It was so touching the way they were expressing themselves. The manager told us their stories that how he find some of them in dustbin or outside some hospital or near bus stand or on railway track. I have always considered myself and ankit as emotionally very strong but that part of life really make us cry within myself. For some moments I was absent from the world. I always feel that I could have done little better in life if born and brought up in little better atmosphere but at that moment I was just cursing myself that what an asshole I was to complain about life. These kids don’t have anything they deserve (left the question of desires). I was comparing myself to them and was feeling strange that I have 2 hands and legs which are working fine as compare to some of them. I have a brain that is in my control as compare to some of them. I have a future, a family, and few friends and more importantly I have a full name. Yes I have an identity.

My complains were based around health, promotion, money while they have complains about basic needs of life like; to meet their parents, to get some love in life, to join the main stream society, to have family, to have friends.

On our way back none of us was speaking anything. It may be due to some kind of guilt or some kind of frustration or because of hatred to society for being so cruel to them.

I was asking a question to myself that what their faults to have a life like hell were. I could have been at their place. So now this my responsibility to put some color in their otherwise colorless life. This I will do not to be free of my guilt but because I want to do it, because this world is a beautiful place and every human being have equal right to realize the beauty of it, Its everybody’s basic right to have a family, to love some one and to be loved.

By the way thanks ankit for this trip…

Thanx god to make me realize my responsibilities…

Thanx papa to give me an identity and

Thanks ma for all your self less love and care…

Happy New Year....

DEAR ALL,

EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE, EVERY HOUR, EVERY DAY,

EVERY WEEK, EVERY MONTH, EVERY YEAR IS

SPECIAL FOR EVERYONE.BUT ALWAYS THE BEGINNING OF

A NEW YEAR IS SOMETHING SPECIAL TO BEGIN

WITH FORGIVE, FORGET,RESOLVE,LOVE AND HUG WITH

MANKIND.

AS THE YEAR PASSED THE WORLD HAS DEVELOPED

IMMENSELY IN MULTIPLES WITH DIFFERENT CASTE ,

RELIGION ,REGIONS AND FACILITIES BUT FORGOT TO

RETAIN LOVE,SINCERITY,PROSPERITY AND MANKIND.


HENCE I MAKE A CRUEL DEMAND FROM ONE AND ALL

TO SPEND AN HOUR A DAY TO SPREAD MANKIND,LOVE

AND GET LOVED FOR A BETTER TODAY FOR SELF AND

A WONDERFUL AND PROSPEROUS TOMORROW FOR

YOUR CHILDREN.

Wishing you all

A WONDERFUL
NEW YEAR l

Alvida 2010.....

When you will read this blog, year 2010 will be taking its last few breaths and 2011 will be warming up. For our nation as well as for me personally year 2010 was a big one. Here I’m more concerned about my pain and gain theory rather then nation’s problems.

This year was one of the most important years of my life. If I will say it was a decisive year then I will not be wrong either. At personal, professional and emotional front it was best year till date.

There were many breathtaking moments, many memorable encounters…I am going to discuss all of them in chronological order.

There were many places where I visit.

Even the start of this year was very special as I went to visit golden temple on 1^st Jan with NSN friends. That trip was brilliant. I went Wagha border and jaliyawala bagh, about which otherwise I have heard only in old stories.

At the start of this year I was in gurgaon. In gurgaon only I met Vinay and Balraj. Though I knew vinay and balraj from NSN starting days but its gurgoan days which brought us closer, So close that we have spend lots of unforgettable moments together. Both are now part of my heart and Vinay is now my best friend. Vinay is one such friend for whom I can feel proud on myself. After few memorable days of gurgaon, our training with NSN was over and we have to move our locations. I can’t forget that day (2^nd Feb.) when people were crying like kids.

I got Gujarat and went to Ahmadabad. Here I got my first project (2G Uninor) and met Mr swapnil Mistry. Mistry sir was my first boss and always politically correct guy. I have learnt a lot from him. Later in Ahmadabad only I met Vaibhav and Nishant. We four (these 2, me and vinay) became room mates and spent some quality time together. I can never ever forget those funny moments in my whole life. While Vaibhav was very sophisticated and practical guy, Nishant was totally fun loving animal.

After leaving Ahmedabad, I went to Rajkot. I spend almost 5-6 months and all this time was full of loneliness apart from the time I spend with Pranav. Rajkot taught me how to live life alone and how to enjoy your loneliness. In Rajkot I came to know kathiyawadi culture and get a chance to know rural Gujarat which was pleasant. This loneliness brings a writer, blogger and traveler out of me. With Pranav and other friends I have visited many places like deev, somnath, gir, tulsi shyam and many more. In Rajkot I got friends like Jay, Heeral, Ramij, Deepak, Vivek and Rajiv.

Rajiv was a wild card entry in my life but soon we became friends. In Rajkot only I met few old friends Niraj, chandna and Abhishek. Niraj was a childhood friend and it was very special to have him near to me. Abhisehk and I was perfect partner for “best restaurant hunting mission” and together we explored many restaurants. Visit of Chanda to Rajkot was never being less memorable.

I was in “thoda hai thode ki jarurat hai” mode in Rajkot when I get a call to join CARE team and it was like miracle. It came to me as if god responds to all prayers.

I joined care team and apart from a good Profile, money and respect, it gave me a chance to re-join a losing battle. A battle which otherwise I was about to lose with a huge difference.

Anyways after coming to care I got a chance to visited few places and met few old friends which otherwise I never have even dreamt.

First I went to Bangalore and met ankit (after 1.5 yrs), smita (after 2-3 yrs), sarika(1 yr), vikrant (2.5 yrs),ashwin (3 yrs).

And ya I met and talk to Ashwini Patankar, an old friend of graduation days with whom I talk after almost 3-4 years.

I get to know Naveed which was a colleague in college and is a friend now.

After Bangalore I went to Mohali-chandigarh and Amabala. I had seen rock garden, Sukna Lake there and met Balraj there. I also patch up with avneet whom I had some arguments earlier and we were not talking from a considerable time.

I went to UP west and met some very practical people there. I had visited taj mahal and Red fort also.

For family too this year was special as construction work of my home is over this year. My sister got married this year. And in her marriage I met almost all my relatives.

In the middle of all these moments how can I forget the moment I spent with Rahul Rathore and Arti. While I got a friend and a decent human being like rahul in Gujarat, I had also spent some class moments with arti.

So finally this year is going…

I am happy and sad…..

Good bye 2010…..

And thanks for everything you give to me….

Do i need a break?

I am in Bangalore from last 7 days now…and its my 2^nd trip to place, before this I was in agra, meerut, mohali and many other cities..After joining NSN,care Team I am a free bird, who is checking the dimensions of sky. I am visiting many cities. I am discovering new places. I am meeting friends whom actually I had given a mental farewell.

When I’m meeting with old friends I am noticing something which is bothering me…its their way of living life…when in college they were full of life, full of energy, full of jokes…now some of them are just living their life waiting for weekends. In the middle of this they are working like machines…Some people are just busy with tv, face book, laptops…that’s it….either they don’t know who they were or they don’t want know….they have lost all their energy..

Every one is depressed, tensed. Everyone is tired mentally. It seems as if they are in loop, they want to get out of this but did not have courage to break the damn door…deep in their heart they know that they are just pawns of their habits, their liking, their way of living….but they are so happy in this mirage that any knock seems intrusion to them…

When we were in college, we don’t have money but freedom….we follows our own philosophies, principles….but now where are we going??

Its like racing a gym cycle, where you are walking and running but actually you are not going anywhere….

Is this the kind of life I want for myself??

Is this the kind of life for which I work hard for 1 quarter of my life?

Is this what they called as L I F E?

I want to live my life not just want to pass it??

Will all these responsibilities and in-securities turn out me in to machine some day….??

What I suppose to do in order not to get in this trap of life??

Do I need a mental, physical and emotional break?

I need answers……

Jindgi 2 pal ki...

Written by a 90 year old, this is something we should all read at least once a week !!!!! Make sure you read to the end !!!!!!

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio .

To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

It's estimated 93% won't forward this. If you are one of the 7% who will, forward this with the title '7%'.
I'm in the 7%. Friends are the family that we choose.